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[velessa]

I forgot to mention the awful dream I had last night. awful in the sense that it made trying to rest impossible. I can't remember any details but the gist of it was that it ticked me off! okay so last night I couldn't fall asleep again. probably because I had taken a nap earlier so I didn't get tired until about 1am. well I went to bed at about 1:30 and I just could not get comfortable. I tossed and turned, opened the window and closed it, turned the fan on and off, pulled the blanket up and threw it off...it sucked. I have a clock radio by my bed with bright red numbers, and I looked at it what seemed like every half hour to see how late it was getting and wonder why I couldn't fall asleep. this went on until something like 3:30. or so I thought...when I woke up when my alarm went off, I'd been having a dream about something I can't remember now, but in the dream I was also looking at this clock every once in a while and the time was getting later and later and I was getting more and more agitated...and when I woke up I could not for the life of me tell if I had really been looking at my clock or if I had been dreaming it. have you ever had a dream you couldn't tell apart from reality? that's what this was. I still don't know now. it seems like I couldn't have been up for as long as the time the clock said when I last remembered looking at it; it felt like I'd slept longer than that. but I have no idea. maybe I really *was* awake for that long and only slept for something like 2-3 hours. anyway I just find it really unsettling when I can't tell if something was reality or just in my head. either way I'm sure I didn't get much sleep!